Blind Love Chapter 20 :-
Before I start this chapter I would like to thank ( @suhaibanii_ , @agirlblogger_M , @h_blogger , @Liferegrets_ , @saudiiblog606 , @kwaity_blogger , @anorexicteen , @shougalshedokhi , @lamiaabuhaimed ) I love them so much and without them I wouldn't have written or completed this Blog
And special thanks to @halaxxv for being my inspiration.
Thanking @taa2h because I always admired her and when she encouraged me in her own way of completing this I just had , oh and also for her amazing gaf6a , made me be more careful
@weamkabsi for being the only one who told me what's good and what's not so great in the story and being the best friend ever ....
Last chapter soo Enjoy xx
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I was laying on my Bed , doing Nothing , just like the past few weeks .. It was like I had nothing to do anymore , I sleep , wake up , Stalk him , go back to sleep.
I don't remember the last time I even got out of bed or even the last time I talked to him.
I closed my eyes and got back into that same hurt full flashback again :
I was skyping with Faisal for the 5th time that day cause he had to go do " something " we would talk for like 10 minutes and he would hang up then call again after half an hour .. Hmm.
Faisal:- Sorry a5r marra askr wallah :$
Nouf:- kl zg 7mar
We had a rule that we wouldn't use our phones while skyping but he pissed me off soo yeah.
I was talking to Khalid , telling him that I was bored and there was nothing to do.
Faisal:- Noufiiii
Nouf:- Hmmm
Faisal:- *angry * nouf glna no phone while skyping
Nouf:- uff fine wj3 ya bzr
And I put my phone down.
We stared at eachother for a while and I knew he wanted to say something.
Nouf:- Spit it out
Faisal:- shfti 4eek Zali5ah ?
*keefi I'm naming her zali5ah "
I crumpled up my nose at her name.
Nouf:- Eee shfeeha ?
Faisal:- um I - wait uhm gotta go ill call you b3d shwy
Nouf:- ha ha don't even call back -.-
I waited an Hour .. Two .... Not a word -.-
My phone rang
Incoming Call > Faisooly«3
Nouf:-......
Faisal:-Noufii
Nouf:- umm-hmm
Faisal:- Nouf I need to tell you something
Nouf:- yeah 4eeek 3rftha shfeeha ?
What ? I wanted him to cut to the chase ....
Faisal:- you knew how I liked her right ?
Well , Yes you asshole but through your sister not you soo No I don't
Nouf:- wait whaat you do ??
Faisal:- la tswen nfsk 3'abyah I can tell
Nouf:- fine ee a3rf 6ybbb what else ?
Faisal:- kallamt st al7bayb * ygldnii *
Nouf:- Aywa ?
Faisal:- w hy kallamat omha w Enshallah byrdun b3d kam youm
What ?
Nouf:- yrdun 3la esh bl6'ab6 ?
Faisal:- nouf ft7ii m5k shwy m3ii agulk klmt umy tklm ahlha
Nouf:- about... ?
I knew what he was talking about , I did but maybe , maybe I was wrong ... Enshallah I am ... Am I ?
Faisal:- be happy for me at least !! Gltlha abeha kallamat ahlha enshallah twafg ya nouf w nn56b
I was quiet ...
It was lke there's no need to do anything anymore
5ala9.
He choose her over me , Just when sara told me she started giving him hints about me ... He knew .. If not fully knew he actually understood that there was something going on , but he chose to ignore it .. He chose the only bitch I can think of over me ......
And with that I just hung up....
He called again but I was too much into my thoughts to even think about picking up .......
And weeks passed
I was heartbrokken ... A knife was stabbed into my heart ... Imagine loving someone since your a kid and losing them in a snap of a finger ?
In a few Months , when she comes back w they see eachother alshufa alshar3ya , everything will be official
In a few months , I would hear everyone talking about " 56ubat Faisal" w what's going to hurt most is that I'm not the one ...
Maybe I was heartbroken about him being engaged to her , But also maybe I'm heartbroken about the fact that a few months later there will be no more faisal.
No more I love you's , No more Skyping , No more weird midnight calls , in so many words ... No more faisal :")
I closed my Eyes and tried to sleep again.
I got my headphones and started shuffling through the songs .
" You can be the peanut butter to my jelly , you can be the butterflies I hear in my belly , you can be the captain and I can be your first mate you can be the chills that I feel on our first date "
And with hearing just the beginning of it a single tear streamed down my face .....
That was our song , as stupid and as gay as that song sounds ... It was cute !! We were bored and were listening to stupid shit on youtube and that song came up madre mnn ween.
Ever since then , that song has been our song ..
Memories , Flashbacks , Lots of stuff came back along with it ...
I remember one time he was like :
Faisal:- wsh tbun entu 4y my Fiance
My heart was beating from the inside...
5alti lulwah :- Aywaaa ? Nouff tgblen b 4a althoor zojan ??
I laughed it off while from the inside I was screaming yesssss!!!
Faisal:- a9lan lazm twafg
Nouf:- kl zg ent o9 ana w 5alti ntfahm
Faisal:- ya3ni mfkra twafgi ?
For a minute he looked hopeful its like he wanted me to say yes ....
Well too late for anything now ....
I listened to the rest of the song silently remembering our laughs and the many arguments we had over changing the lyrics to this song.
I closed my eyes with it full of tears and tried to forget Everything as I drifted off into a dream less sleep.
Another Week passed ....
I was " Nafsiyah " incoherent word ...
I ditched every single Party To ever single family gathering.
All I did was lay down and listen to music .... He would always talk to me and I would be so cold and he'd get bored and leave me alone.
he once asked me what was wrong and I said " wla shy mu shar6 ay a7d y9eer m39b shwy 9ar nafsiyah "
He left me alone to it ....
One time r7mtah ya3ni like all those years of friendship won't go bye in a month ..
Nouf:- Faisalll
Faisal:- Halla blzeen kella Halla
Uh7m
Nouf:- :$
Faisal:- shfeek nouf ?
Nouf:- haw mafeni shy ...
Faisal:- I'm stupid but I can tell when my bestfriend feeha shy -.-
Nouf:- mafii shy
Faisal:- nouf ...
Nouf:- Look faisal she's not good enough for you ! She's so bad ent mat3rfha zen wallah you don't
Faisal:- ya3ni you just don't want to be happy for me ?
Nouf:- mu ke4a !!
Faisal:- Ella ke4a ....
Nouf:- faisal -.-
W ma radd ....
she has him brainwashed !! The amount of hate I have for her right now is unbelievable .. I shouldn't be hating her masawwat shy right ? Not ..
Sweet innocent zali5ah in front of him and then she's madusa the zg in front of us ....
If only he knew ...
Everytime I close my eyes its like I wish to get out of this night mare , I can't live without him , I can't watch him fall harder for her , I can't drift away from him by the day just to get my self ready for the time where I can't even talk to him.
I was hurt ... Broken , and worst ? I was Dissapointed ... In so Many ways .. That I was this stupid ....
The Blade seems so tempting
Sometimes I wonder if I can Just do it
Get rid of all the pain at once
Get rid of him
Of every single shit that goes on in this fucked up world ...
But I'm not strong enough to do that , I'm weak ... Weak Nouf , Always has been weak always will be weak
Always giving up to the pain.
Will I change ?? Or will I forever be this way ?
Will He be my change ?
He changed me .. In so many ways that I can't even explain.
He made me a better person
But in the end , He was the one who broke me down.
Is it all a game ?? Was it all a game ?
Build me Up , Then shoot me down ?
Was this his Plan all along ?
Its ironic isn't it ? The Amount of heart ache you can get from just one person ?Isn't it Ironic How someone can Take up all of your Thoughts and time , be the change in your life , the one you want , But they just go and fall for another ?
Is Life always this Unfair ?
Or is a Happy ending awaiting ?
"I Guess Life isn't a fairytail After all"
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